My family is full of saying – most of which are designed to keep you positive especially in tough times
“Let it go Louie” – my mom always says – mind you… none us are named Lou.
Or my dad favorite “Don’t let them rent space in your head”
Or even my brother’s signature saying “Whatever floats your boat…. Sail on”
Okay maybe that last one is not necessary a reminder to stay positive but more of a reminder that everyone has the right to do “their thing” .
The point is that no matter what happens to you… “they can’t have your birthday” I guess that’s my saying.
Over the past two weeks I have let a witch rent major space in my head. To say that on a normal basis I may think about the person no more than 20 minutes each decade is only a slight exaggeration. However now - I can’t get this person out of my head. Basically she directly screwed over someone I love dearly and indirectly screwed over someone the witch and I both love.
“Let it go Louie” – my mom always says – mind you… none us are named Lou.
Or my dad favorite “Don’t let them rent space in your head”
Or even my brother’s signature saying “Whatever floats your boat…. Sail on”
Okay maybe that last one is not necessary a reminder to stay positive but more of a reminder that everyone has the right to do “their thing” .
The point is that no matter what happens to you… “they can’t have your birthday” I guess that’s my saying.
Over the past two weeks I have let a witch rent major space in my head. To say that on a normal basis I may think about the person no more than 20 minutes each decade is only a slight exaggeration. However now - I can’t get this person out of my head. Basically she directly screwed over someone I love dearly and indirectly screwed over someone the witch and I both love.
The situation has made me question my belief in karma, the justice system, the universe, the balance of good and evil, the world as I know it. Okay I may be getting carried away – but it does make me wonder…
Where is the silver lining in situations that seem so one sided? How do you let it go? How do you make peace with something you have no control over? How do I stop myself from wishing not so nice things on this person. Right now- the witch is not only renting space in my head, she has applied for a mortgage .
The funny part about all of this – the one that got royally screwed in this situation – just seems relived that it’s over. I think I am more upset then the person. The injustice of it all just seems so unfair. I want to scream, but no one is listening… Does anyone feel my pain?…. I digress and I am still getting carried away.
Here is how it’s been explained to me … anything that does not kill you makes you stronger, it’s only money. A year from now will it still be that important.
Where is the silver lining in situations that seem so one sided? How do you let it go? How do you make peace with something you have no control over? How do I stop myself from wishing not so nice things on this person. Right now- the witch is not only renting space in my head, she has applied for a mortgage .
The funny part about all of this – the one that got royally screwed in this situation – just seems relived that it’s over. I think I am more upset then the person. The injustice of it all just seems so unfair. I want to scream, but no one is listening… Does anyone feel my pain?…. I digress and I am still getting carried away.
Here is how it’s been explained to me … anything that does not kill you makes you stronger, it’s only money. A year from now will it still be that important.
Like I said my family annoyingly big on catch phrases. I am trying…. really I am (pause) nope- still mad.
As I am writing this.. I will admit I am finally starting to feel better. It occurs to me that I have finally found the silver lining… family and friends.
For this situation every single member of my extend family (and friends) came together to help. No judgments were made. No questions were asked. Which says a lot about my circle , but more about the person we love. How wonderful is this person if everyone wants to help them. It’s enough to humble you, even if you are in the middle of a tantrum.
Of course, I will still take comfort in the fact that – “karma is a bitch” and she will get what she desires. However, I would never wish ill on the witch.
I guess I do still believe in karma and that the universe rights all wrongs – eventually. Until then – I plan on evicting this person from my mind permanently, by taking my mom’s advice –
“Let it go Louie…”
As I am writing this.. I will admit I am finally starting to feel better. It occurs to me that I have finally found the silver lining… family and friends.
For this situation every single member of my extend family (and friends) came together to help. No judgments were made. No questions were asked. Which says a lot about my circle , but more about the person we love. How wonderful is this person if everyone wants to help them. It’s enough to humble you, even if you are in the middle of a tantrum.
Of course, I will still take comfort in the fact that – “karma is a bitch” and she will get what she desires. However, I would never wish ill on the witch.
I guess I do still believe in karma and that the universe rights all wrongs – eventually. Until then – I plan on evicting this person from my mind permanently, by taking my mom’s advice –
“Let it go Louie…”
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